Welcome to my 1st blog. I've never been into this blogging thingy before, which i decided to embark on out of fun. And this is how I am gonna kickstart it.
In case you're wondering how come i chose Jedi; any member of the knightly order in Star Wars, which was trained to defend justice and peace in the universe(www.dictionary.com), its juz
simply because i have been an avid fan of it since young and started off when i saw the 1st Star Wars movie(dun noe how long ago it was).
...don't worry! Other than sometimes fantasizing about becoming a Jedi, I'm very normal otherwise. (just abit too normal)
THE MODEL
Tan Fei Fan
23-09-1987
North View Primary
Orchid Park Secondary
Yishun Junior College
Singapore Armed Forces
Citibank CCMU
OCBC SBL-SDP
SIM HE6
NTU Aerospace
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
11:12 PM
So sorry for not updating this blog for as frequently as I wanted to as I have been busy this few days and that it seem to take a long time whenever I wanted to write a post. I guess I'm still not used to it bah.
Speaking of which, I recently started a new job at OCBC working under this Securities dept. At first I thought it should be kind of an enriching experience for me to be there as it is actually dealing with shares trading even though it is only a 1 month assignment. Come to think of it now, it was just wishful thinking on my part. On the 1st day, I went to the HR dept to report for work and was already made to wait for 20 min before the HR personnel could attend to me( they were also attending to a bunch of interns at the same time which I went in too initially, realising it only after all of them made some intro about themselves. Sianz its so embarrassing la and why is it happening to me on my starting day?) and direct me to the dept which I will working at. After that, I went there and waited until I was joined by Charles(another temp), followed by another 2 hr wait while waiting for the PC to be set up. Not that I was complaining being paid for doing nothing but its just that we run out of topics to talk about(I really tried my best to be proactive). In the end, I was just stoning my life away while sporadically trying to strike a conversation. Was actually quite 'gan dong' when I later received an sms from Yi Xiang that he wanted to lunch with me; thinking that I have no lunch buddy on my 1st day. Since then, both of us were doing boring data entry; going through piles of statements checking for discrepancies. Not your idea kind of job though, when we are the only temps around(not sure about other depts though) and I haven really click with the perms yet; maybe coz of generation gap bah.
Come to think of it, Citibank is actually a better place to be in, discounting the jobscope though. Not that I'm regretting my decision to quit(am I?) but I think Man are just like that, never seem to be satisfied and keep asking for more and when things go wrong, you start to question yourself why did you make this decision. I, for 1, dun deny that I think this way too; I mean who doesn't wish for everything in life to be good. I guess this is part and parcel of life(you have to accept that sometimes things are never meant to go your way) and I still have a long way to go to learn how to really give and take with an open heart.
A hr have juz passed away since is I started this entry. To end it off, below are some photos which I took with Gk, Yi Xiang and Raymond last Sun at Chijmes. Kindda regret going there though, not really what I expected it to be..........
Well, looking on the bright side, having this job is at least way better than being surrounded by 4 walls with nothing to do. Hopefully for the next 1 mth, things there will go better and make my stint more enjoyable. Till then................May the Force guide me and be with me(you too of course).
...the dark lord came, and left
Sunday, April 27, 2008
11:03 AM
Dun be surprised by the title of it for those who knows what it means; it has nothing to do with Hitler and are wondering how come I chose it as a way to start off my post. But I feel that this is the best phrase to aptly describe my feelings for the past 1 mth.
Firstly like to apologise for not updating this blog for so long coz I simply don't really have the mood for it reason being for these past weeks I have been doing nothing but slacking around at home after quitting my job at Citibank. Ideally, I have wanted to rest for 1 or 2 weeks before starting on a new job. Thats how all my struggles started; from traveling to and fro for job interviews to painful waiting for the long overdue replies which of course never came. Plus in the process, being cheated of a job offer which turns out to be totally different from the jobscope that I was told of (not Shaun's fault though-that company was out to scam us in the 1st place). Everyday when I woke up, I was always asking myself what I am gonna do today? During this time, I thought of a lot of things and came to a few conclusions about myself:
1) I am not a Zai Nan. I cannot imagine staying at home for a stretch of a few weeks for another time(I am going crazy just thinking about it again) 2) I am too trusting to people; thanks to all those recruitment consultants who contribute to it in 1 way or another.
Till now, U all may be wondering, if thats the case then why I quit my previous job in the 1st place without securing a job. Well I admit its partly my fault(those who have worked there before should understand my decision) but at that time I really feel that its just time for me to move on.
Well enough of all those emo thoughts, here are some of the pictures that I took with my colleagues on my last day at Citi ( guess I will miss them and hope that we can meet up for some chit chat next time)
And to end things off in a lighter mode, I will be starting a new job tomorrow and wish me best of lucks. Till then..........
God bless and May the Force be with you
...the dark lord came, and left
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
5:45 PM
This is actually my 1st post to this blog. Thnx Willy for helping me to setting out this blog, which started off when I mentioned to him that i was interested in doing so and for the 'advertisement' that he made on his blog. I really 'appreciate' his help in making this blog. Anyway as I am new to blogging, I may need to take some time to further refine it since it has alr been vilified by U-Noe-Who. Hope that I can get the hang of it real soon.
Today was really a bad day for me. It started off with me going with Willy for an interview at Success Agency at Peace Centre(the place damn wu loo la). Things begin to turn bad when I reach OCBC Centre for the next interview where I simply could not find my way around the building. When I finally reach there and had my interview, the interviewer kept hinting me to commit for a few months but then of course i don't want to commit so early and to try out for some time first. After that, I and Willy went to AMK Hub to loiter about and have lunch together. Probably because I have in mind that I will not get the job, I was feeling very emo about it. Of course don't know for what reason, Willy was feeling emo too(like huh? he is actually feeling sad coz after tuanging so much, he is starting work tomorrow; what a paradox). Really have to admire him for listening to my constant grumbling and yet at the same time can still feel emo about his own problem. In the end we went back home. Worse have yet to happen, when i was at home using my sis's laptop to carry on my job search journey again, it suddenly crashed. I was like WTF...... my sis gonna strangle me when she comes back.
Haiz, what a day it has been for me and after that, having calm down and thought about it, me failing the interview wasn't such a bad thing after all coz my jobscope was actually to be an errand boy(like cannot trust job agency nowadays when you wanna look for a proper admin job). Anyway, Shaun got me a temp job starting work tml. Although it involves calling people again;of course not the type where u call people for money(I had enough of it)and that it's only till end april, but i just accepted it coz i don't wanna stay at home and rot(this is the 7th day i have been officially declared jobless). Well, see how it goes, hope that all turns well and till then,
May the Force be with you
...the dark lord came, and left
Sunday, April 6, 2008
8:37 PM
Hi everyone, my first post i ever wrote on this blog.
