Welcome to my 1st blog. I've never been into this blogging thingy before, which i decided to embark on out of fun. And this is how I am gonna kickstart it.
In case you're wondering how come i chose Jedi; any member of the knightly order in Star Wars, which was trained to defend justice and peace in the universe(www.dictionary.com), its juz
simply because i have been an avid fan of it since young and started off when i saw the 1st Star Wars movie(dun noe how long ago it was).
...don't worry! Other than sometimes fantasizing about becoming a Jedi, I'm very normal otherwise. (just abit too normal)
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Have actually been wondering this question for the past few days. Well it came upon when I was on the train on my way to work. When I stepped into the as usual crowded train, I was observing the people on it and that almost everyone in office wear was displaying that very shagged look and their eyes were literally lifeless as if their soul were gone.
What I'm trying to say is that when I look at them, this niggling question suddenly came to my mind,"What's my purpose in life?" Again, I look at them, trying to figure out the rationale behind the looks on their faces. Does it implies that they are actually dreading to go to work? If so, then why did they choose their present job in the 1st place?( I mean u should be choosing a job that u have a passion in, like ur dream job or sth close to it since u are going to spend the next major part of ur life on it after ur studies, and that of course it muz be somehow related to what u really wannna do in life). Well speaking of which, was talking with Charles the other day and he was mentioning to me how common it is to see people literally clocking OTs for the rest of their lives and I'm talking abt for the next 20-30 years. Wow, its like they really like this job to wanna spend so much time on it? I doubt so, its more like that they are trying to earn that extra money. Back to it, looking at those facial lines that seem to be ravaged by the onslaught of time, I realise that the reality of life have set in for them. Probably they really did have dreams, but that was before, bread and butter issues and the need to support their family now makes dreams to remain that way. Will I be like them 10 years down the road, with soulless eyes looking forward to the start of day at work? I really hope not and that I will be able to do sth that I wanna do. For more than once, I have ask myself what is the thing that I want? Well, to start off in the short term, I'm looking forward to Uni life and hopefully at last to be able to fall in love and then maybe to become a research defence engineer(my ideal job) but what about after that or is there anything else I really want? I'm at a loss now. Like to share with u all a simple test that Jimmy share with me when I was undergoing training at Citibank that can help u find out what u really want. Take a piece of paper and fold into half. Use ur right hand, write down what u hope to achieve in life on the right side. After that repeat the steps, but this time round using ur left hand instead and write on the left hand side. U will actually be surprised that what u written on the left hand side of the paper differs from the right hand side and that the things that u have written on the left hand side are what u really want deep down inside u.
Well, it works for me though. Although I had done it quite a long time ago and that I pretty forgotten what I have written, I still remember that I written the word 'happy' on the left hand side. Till now, I'm still surprised by why I wrote that down. Probably, I'm just an ordinary guy. Haiz, think I will just take that. U may try this too and u may just be surprised that what u really want in life may actually be very mundane. Gotta go sleep alr. Till then, May the Force guide u to the path that u wanna be in and not be lost in the harsh truth of reality. Nitez....
...the dark lord came, and left
