Welcome to my 1st blog. I've never been into this blogging thingy before, which i decided to embark on out of fun. And this is how I am gonna kickstart it.
In case you're wondering how come i chose Jedi; any member of the knightly order in Star Wars, which was trained to defend justice and peace in the universe(www.dictionary.com), its juz
simply because i have been an avid fan of it since young and started off when i saw the 1st Star Wars movie(dun noe how long ago it was).
...don't worry! Other than sometimes fantasizing about becoming a Jedi, I'm very normal otherwise. (just abit too normal)
Sunday, December 31, 2017
2017 was a year of reflection. In my memories, the only year that came close to that was probably 12 years back during JC 2 where I can still recalled memories of that year were nothing more than that of me studying only and constantly asking myself in the middle of the night, for what am I studying for?
Compared to JC2, there were so much more things to reflect......... The passing of a loved one made me realised the importance of family. Even when the world seems to go against you, you know that other than close friends, you know that you have your family to count your back on.
Working overseas was a good experience but yet at the same time I recall the nights spent in the apartment when surprisingly sleep does not come easy to me even though my energy were all spent from the day's work. "For what am I doing this for?" "Why do I get upset so easily?" Those questions stuck with me even till now.
I was happy to come back and at the same time at least for you, I felt I was ready for that. For a moment, I was hopeful that this christmas finally brings warmth to my heart but the confliction within ........ Love does not come easy for a person like me and there were constant flashbacks on what could have happened if circumstances changed.
Its probably also the year that I have gotten back my reading habit from the amount of them I have completed thus far, but unlike previous years, the books read this year were no longer fiction in majority but rather leaning towards finance and reflection.
Maybe it's because I have reached the big 30. I felt that I still have accomplished nothing much in life. There still remains a lot of inhibitions within me that seem to prevent me from doing something from what my heart desires. Or possibly do I even know what I even want for myself?
Nevertheless, 2017 was a year of unwanted experiences and yet at the same time I gained numerous insights on life. My life perceptions had deepened and matured immensely. Yes the next year will still most likely be filled with questions and insights on life and I'm hopeful that it will be a good one. I mean, how worse could it have gotten compared to this year anyway haha.
Be happy:) 2018 will be good for me:)
...the dark lord came, and left
