Welcome to my 1st blog. I've never been into this blogging thingy before, which i decided to embark on out of fun. And this is how I am gonna kickstart it.
In case you're wondering how come i chose Jedi; any member of the knightly order in Star Wars, which was trained to defend justice and peace in the universe(www.dictionary.com), its juz
simply because i have been an avid fan of it since young and started off when i saw the 1st Star Wars movie(dun noe how long ago it was).
...don't worry! Other than sometimes fantasizing about becoming a Jedi, I'm very normal otherwise. (just abit too normal)
Wednesday, September 23, 2020
Used to like immersing myself in books, dramas....... that's when i can bring myself out of the state of mind i'm momentarily in and just forget about whatever happiness, unhappiness state i'm in
increasingly though, that translates into dance and at times running that i can do that. Perhaps there are some unique connection that release of physical exertions does to the spiritual state of mind...
this year hasn't been exactly smooth sailing but it really does provide time to take a step back from the daily grind, the rat race to sit back to ponder the what, the why i'm doing certain things in life. I don't really have the answer to all this....
at las, its not all about work though.... because of this, mixed feelings i have each time with the start and end of weekdays... yes there will be growth out of this situation. will something fruitful happens out of this? i really hope so but the mind does not sync with the heart. of course i do not want to be inside that bubble again, with these endless loop replaying in my head. for someone like me, its not really easy for me to consider someone to become a SO. i also do know this saying" its not that you are not good enough, its just that the someone does not see the goodness in you". Whatever happens, whether it does or does not, my wish is that i will come out a happier, a better person.... yup that's my wish for this year!
well i'm not sure what i'm ranting abt here, perhaps i just needed an avenue to just rattle off:)
...the dark lord came, and left