Saturday, December 19, 2015
Well beats me actually. It was always something i wanted to do way back when I first started blogging but its just that things changed, priorities changed over the years.....
All these years, other than becoming a jedi (obviously that's not going to happen lol), i imagine myself becoming a writer in a alternate universe. I mean why not? I have been such an avid reader since young and that part of me fortunately still exist within me even till now. Blogging essentially is a very good way to start cultivating a good writing habit i suppose.
Blogging, just like writing a diary, serves as a very good way to express yourself and an avenue to vent your frustrations. Come on its my own space, i could write and rant about anything i want. I was never an expressive person in the first place. I mean I'm much better in expressing myself compared to back in my olden days but still....... I'm not trying to become an extrovert overnight. What I'm hoping for is that i could someday me able to clearly my thoughts and what i really want to my target audience. Its simply just that.
With regards to the part about venting my frustrations, unfortunately that has been put inside on the other blog which i have already made private. Too negative, too naive i suppose to even look back at it hahah. Everybody needs some source to vent their frustrations in order to remain sane and going about in life. Some drink (sometimes for me hahah), some release it to their friends and closed ones and some blog. I found it out the hard way if you keep on bottling up your feelings and keeping it to yourself. And yup learning to be more expressive......
Eventually, I hope that someday, i would become a writer that touches my readers' heart. To make them connected and inspiring them to make meaningful impacts in life. It's not an easy journey, but I'm going to get there.
...the dark lord came, and left
Friday, December 18, 2015
Often in life, we are always striving to do things in the least amount of time just so because we we can squeeze in more things to do. More so than not, we find ourselves (or probably its just me) leading a busy life. So much so that it is easy to forget what it means to live.
Sounds ironic isn't it that. Especially so in Singapore, we have become mindless human beings that has to live with the endless pursuit of things we want in life. When young, its always about studies and getting ahead of others. When working, its about climbing out the corporate ladder. When one gets older, its being busy setting out a family. Further down the road, its busy about seeing your offsprings growing up etc...... So much so that i guess people follow the same template in going about their entire lives.
We get so lost that we lose ourselves in the process many a times. It was so for me during my junior college that I worked so hard for studies during that 2 years that after graduation when i looked back, the 2 years were just simply a blank in my life. I was too obsessed in achieving the results that i want that i forgotten how to live life. Those days of going home after school to mug all the way until sleep time and the cycle repeating itself for almost every single day were just too sad to recall. My only companions back then were the 933 FM DJs playing songs just so that i wouldnt feel so alone in this world.
I realise that to make myself seemed that i have a fulfilling life, all these years i have been making myself more busy. Whether was it juggling studies, teaching tuition and dancing during my university days to juggling work, korean classes and dancing now. Leading a fulfilling life does not necessarily equate to leading a busy life. Its more about living in the moment. Im not so sure at this point in time when I'm writing, i could really comprehend the significance behind it. At certain periods, its important to take a step back from all these 'distractions' in life to review them in its entirety.
Lead not a busy but rather a fulfilling life. Live the moment to its fullest.
...the dark lord came, and left
Monday, December 14, 2015
Genesis - A new beginning
What a way to title this post on a blog that was long dead. Was contemplating should I just start off with a new blog, under a new name but i guess i was just too lazy to do so haha. Nah this just seems like a good way to start off why i did that.
Who doesn't like to start on a clean slate of life? Unfortunately who we are and what we are now are mostly as a result of our past actions and experiences. More often than so, unknowingly it starts to dictate the decisions that we make in life. For example, your career decisions now are most likely based on your discipline of studies; a decision made from the past. Without even realising it, your judgement of everything in life gets clouded by your past. How then do you see past that so that you do not get myopic in your life views? Being able to separate the stories in your mind based off what happened and what really happened.
Well this is easier said than done and I don't think this is a concept that can be easily understood. It requires constant reminder of yourself to be objective in differentiating it. Just yesterday, it finally dawned upon me that I haven't been living my life fully. I had this fear around me for as long i can remember. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of speaking out, fear of trying things out, basically fear of everything. Because of that, I chose to live a life that i thought was easy. Its not to say that i was a good for nothing bum that just bum about myself in life. it was that there was so much more things that i could have done but i simply put them off or didnt even consider the possibility of it just because of all those fears. Those fears were simply just a manifestation in my mind of something that wasn't real to begin with. All these years, my actions were slaved or governed by it. it is important to not let what happened in the past affect the present you.
Every single day is a new beginning.
...the dark lord came, and left
