Was having this conversation with my friend today over whether can ex lovers ever become close friends after that. We look over at the live example we had in the office and the clear cut conclusion was NO hahaha. Initially the both of them were kindda like the inspiration for me in the sense that if things ended on amicable terms, it is still possible to go back to what things were. Unfortunately for the both of them, things came downhill pretty fast and I sincerely pray from the bottom of my heart that the day will never come if i were to be assigned to a team with the both of them in it. 

For me I really once thought that I can be such a person. A person that can still remain a close friend to someone that i was in a relationship with. I guess I was so wrong about myself. The conclusion I get is that it might be possible. Possible if in the near future one does not see the other or hear any news about him/her. What got me into it was when my friend mentioned that its quite upsetting that ex lovers can never go back to being good friends again if they were so from the beginning. Without thinking, i told my friend that perhaps all this while it was only her that was thinking this way about being upset. The other party might not even be bothered about it and have simply just moved on with his life. It might just had been her own wishful thinking to think of it this way. 

I used to think that I was an unfeeling person. But no, Im in fact more feeling than normal people. So much so that i had change from an INTP to an INFP person. Too much obstinacy, too much negativity.......... If time were to turn back, i think i would have handled things more differently. 

"Lets not be friends for a near future". 

Love is not a bubble. I had lived in one a long time back. That is not love..... Its just that I didnt knew what was love.

Today was kindda like a sucky day for me. First, didnt really sleep well the night before due to my wisdom tooth thats acting up on me these couple of days. Then I had to skip my dance lesson again due to work (arghhh have not dance for more than a week already lol). To top things up, i got to suffer from gastric attacks once in the afternoon and once during the evening due to work. This job seriously is not paying me enough for me to suffer from this health issues man haha...

Well enough about the ramblings about everyday life. Earlier in the morning i was actually thinking about something over what I was discussing with my friend the night before about someone who's not thinking about love at the moment because she's too cropped up with work to even have time to think about it. And i literally meant real super duper busy.... It then came across to my mind that it isn't really because she's too busy to think about it, it simply just meant that she's still not ready to think  or rather don't wanna think about it. What I'm really want to say is that, regardless whatever has happened in the past resulting in today's predicament, she deserve another shot at it, I too deserve another shot at it too.... at love. Well I'm might be entirely wrong to come out with this conclusion, but no-one should be denied another shot at love again just because of the not so pleasant past experience that makes one fearful to even want to attempt it again. For fear that one will go through the same nightmare again. Its just too sad to for one to have this kind of thought. As what one told me before, one should never give up hope to keep on looking for the right one.

After such a long period of not wanting to think about it, I think I'm ready, are you?:(

Life is short isn't it...... Was on my way home today when I was a witness to a traffic accident that happened right before my eyes. Like literally less than 10 meters away only. Thank god the little boy appeared fine with no visible injuries from as far as I could tell other than kindda being in a shock though. The same goes for the driver though. It took a full minutes for him to make sense of whatever happened then he managed to come out to have a look at him. Time seems to have stopped for that few seconds; I mean I stood stunned too like wtf just happened. Everything happened so fast and all I could do was just stood there......... I felt useless about myself at that moment:{ about not doing anything.

For life is so unpredictable, today a young life could just have been lost like that if the driver wasn't alert enough to stop immediately when a person was dashing across the road. Being able to witness this right before my eyes could just have been a sign for me. A sign to treasure living. Being feeling kinda lost again over the weekend. I'm not really sure what's gotta into me too lol. Be thankful for just the fact that I'm still alive because just being so gives one the possibility to create new possibilities. Live life fully, have a little more faith in myself and not be inhibited by my inhibitions, my fears, my excuses....

Love thyself more for life is short:)