Welcome to my 1st blog. I've never been into this blogging thingy before, which i decided to embark on out of fun. And this is how I am gonna kickstart it.
In case you're wondering how come i chose Jedi; any member of the knightly order in Star Wars, which was trained to defend justice and peace in the universe(www.dictionary.com), its juz
simply because i have been an avid fan of it since young and started off when i saw the 1st Star Wars movie(dun noe how long ago it was).
...don't worry! Other than sometimes fantasizing about becoming a Jedi, I'm very normal otherwise. (just abit too normal)
Sunday, March 5, 2017
The past month went past like a train for me. The almost daily visits to SGH to visit dad, to caring for him at home and finally preparations for his funeral for throughout the whole of last week. Finally, I'm just left with settling the admin stuff.
I'm not sure what to feel about it. Yes the house seems emptier now since we have 1 less person and that the home-cooked food which I had almost taken of for granted would perhaps be a thing of the past or not so frequent now. But its way easier compared to seeing him deteriorating day by day. Still remembered vividly the signs that I should have notice the night before his passing, the moment I sense that his pulse was gone when it was still pulsating just a few minutes back and the warmth in his body that slowly ebbed off to be replaced by coldness.......
I thought I had more time, but alas I did not have enough time to plan or properly spend all time I had wanted to. I did not feel much fatherly love from all these years (perhaps its just your character that doesnt show it, but I would never know) but I do know that from time to time I would definitely miss you.
Though the departed has left, the living are what's present. I, with sis and bro would take better care of mum from now on. This I promise. In the meantime, do in a place where you are free from pain and discomfort, wish for the very best of the well-being of the entire family.
xoxo Dad
...the dark lord came, and left