Welcome to my 1st blog. I've never been into this blogging thingy before, which i decided to embark on out of fun. And this is how I am gonna kickstart it.
In case you're wondering how come i chose Jedi; any member of the knightly order in Star Wars, which was trained to defend justice and peace in the universe(www.dictionary.com), its juz
simply because i have been an avid fan of it since young and started off when i saw the 1st Star Wars movie(dun noe how long ago it was).
...don't worry! Other than sometimes fantasizing about becoming a Jedi, I'm very normal otherwise. (just abit too normal)
Saturday, March 10, 2018
It was a home gathering at my place with friends with people I was close with as well as some that I have not met for quite some time......... and then her.... Throughout the gathering we did not talk much but I find myself unknowingly glancing her at times and yea she knew that I was looking at her. People started leaving and then her. As host, I walked her to my doorstep and it seems she had something she wanted to say but was lost in her thoughts. Finally....
Her: "hmm you know I have been wanting to say this, probably its just that nothing actually happened because I thought it was too much for me to bare if I were expected to be caring for you because of what happened to your dad" (actually this reasoning sounded abit strange now that i recall about this)
Me: Pondering.... "It was never my intention to want you to feel this way. Its just......"
My naughty baby nephew had to come in to disrupt our conversation.....
Her: "Its kindda hard to continue our conversation here"
Me: "Let me send you downstairs...."
In the lift.....
Her: "I imagined that it would be ok for me to remain the way I am and just be single all the way"
Me: "I'm not really sure how things gone the way they are but especially so for the last 3-4 months of my dad's demise, my mind wasn't really thinking about any other things........"......(silence) ......
(mutual friends were inside the lift all these while)
Her: "you know I have been inching to travel"
Me: Smiling "wow me too. I'm just feeling so bored ..... hmm let's continue our conversation at some other place"...........
It's very seldom I have such vivid dreams which I can recall what went on and of her..... I'm not sure whether should I try to make sense of it. Or is this a manifestation of my own imaginary world (I have a habit of trapping myself inside them). what a way to start my weekend.....
...the dark lord came, and left